Baby T

Our Dr. appointment started with the ultrasound!! (Our favorite part) The baby was moving like crazy!! Her (although we don't know the gender, we just hate using "it") arms and legs were flailing around! Kyle looked up at the ultrasound tech: and said "it that an arm, a leg, etc. is the baby moving" She assured us that the baby was moving and that is a great sign to have an active baby!!! We than got to hear the heartbeat which was SO strong!! 174 beats/min! It's amazing as we watch the baby grow before our eyes, and we see God truly knitting her together!! After the tech left the room kyle looked at me with this serious face and said "Can you feel all of that?" (The picture is the 11 1/2 week, we love our ultrrasound tech! She is fabulous about getting lots of pictures for us!)

We than waited to meet with our Dr. He came in with a huge smile, and said you guys are doing so great!! The blod clot is getting smaller (Thank you Lord for answered prayers!!) and you guys have almost made it to the secound trimester (Next Saturday, the 21st will be the beginninious fg of the 2nd trimester). He also told us that our miscarriage rate has fallen from a 75% to 5%. (Kyle and I's eyes bugged out of our head, as we both just starred at eachother) The Dr. said he really thinks were going to carry this baby to a full term. :) He also talked to us about continuing to be very careful. He's leaving me on modified best rest - he said I can start to do a little more, but to be incredibly careful!! (We go back on the 31st) Kyle and I have decided to stick with what we have been doing!! It's obviously working, so why change now?! However, we would love your prayers concerning my job: when I let them know what was going on they said they didnt know if they could hold my job open that long. Kyle and I are really trusting that God will provide for our finances.

Overall, it was an incredibly encouraging visit as we see Gods faithfulness in the birth of our first baby!! Thank you for the countless prayers you have offered for us!! And we thank you for your continued prayers, as we wait and behold the wonders of the God we serve!!

In the meantime Kyle and I continue looking at baby names, although the girl names are coming along much slower than the boy names!!

For Boys we like: Jaxon, Aiden, and I really like Noah
For Girls we like: Addison and Alexis

Reflections

"At any given moment God is doing a 1000 different things in you"

As I sat in reflection and drawing on Joni Eareckson Tada's lesson "A Jewel In His Crowen" with Ginny Owens playing in the background Im looking at this in a new pespective. A perspective I hope I can hold on too! I look over the past few weeks and I see the incredible fear I have had of what God is doing: fear that it would be His plan to take the baby and that I could do nothing to stop Him. I have held on with incredibly tight fists. But I have decided that fists let go, hands open, and heart ready my desire more than anything, yes even more than this sweet baby, is my desire to be the Women God has for me. I want to be more like Him, to see His son shine through my broken cracks. When I was lisstening to Joni she talked about how in this world there is so much suffering, and while I know I am an incredibly blessed women, and my suffering is minimal compared to so many, this is indeed a trial. My prayer is that I will begin to look at in a new light: that I will relize like Joni says: "I am not as delicate as I would like to think" That I can see the selfish ness of me, my domestic sins that I have so easily looked past, and that I might truly begin to desire God to scoure me, His refinement, not becasue I enjoy the struggels, but because I truly desire to be a reflextion of Gods Son! I desire to truly yield my life to Christ. Least this sound holier than thou, I know I have an incredibly long ways to go, the rest of this earthly life to be precise. I just wanted to share my new perspective, in knowing that as you read this you will partner my prayers not only that God would stregthen our sweet little baby, but that He would use this trial to make more like Him, to grown and to chnage me!